No I'm not going anywhere but a part of me did. A part of me died the day my Jeep left my driveway for the last time. Silly you may think but truth is it was one of those things you put on a mental list in your head as "Note to self don't ever get yourself in this position again EVER" and it Killed me!!
Knowing the Jeep was gone was easy, it was a huge relief to be 100% honest. How the Jeep came to be driven out of my driveway was the part that killed me.
A little history on the Jeep 1st. Gary and I love Jeeps, Oh what fun it was to ride in an open Jeep! It was our 3rd Jeep together Gary's 4th or 5th Jeep in all. As I said earlier we wiped out our saving account for reasons and we knew life was short and we wanted to have fun again. I was making good money and we could afford it (mental note #2 never ever finance another vehicle pay cash). Our friends Steve and Cath had a Jeep and we went to the Cape with them the summer of 08 and wanted to have a Jeep the summer of 09 so we bit the bullet and got our selves a Jeep we did.
I also said I was a sales woman and when we decided to buy the Jeep I told Gary to NOT SAY A WORD Let me do the talking just stand there and look like the pretty little husband he is heheheheh. I know sounds so bad but really I am good at what I do and I know sales so let me do my job! I did my job, I did it very well and we drove away with our new toy.
Now that things were so bad, I had been trying to sell the Jeep with no luck at all and I knew the toy had to go and fast. I called the Bank. They suggested I call Dealerships and see if any of them would be willing to buy my Jeep.
This is also where as much as it killed me you have to look at blessing and I found one in the 1st call I made. His name was Jamie. Told me he would come the next day and look at the Jeep.
Jamie showed up right on time, Looked at my perfect Jeep with less then 10,000 miles on it and gave me a price the Bank had never heard a Car Dealership giving a person before (This was a short sale) At one point I started to cry. I don't know why I just did and Jamie told me his story, he said he didn't know why just did. He promised me things would get better. Told me he knew what I was going through because he too had walked in my shoes. Told me a very personal story I wont repeat and it made me feel better. I think Jamie was an angle not a car dealer truthfully that day. They say people come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. Jamie for whatever it was you were my angle that day standing in my garage, Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Now on to why it did kill me to see the Jeep go. I signed on the dotted line. Now I know so many people would say forget about it, move on, so what. But not me. I am and so isn't my husband, we are people of our word. If you cant give people your word and mean it then what the hell can you give them correct! We told the bank by signing on that dotted line that we would agree to make that payment each month on time for the time we agree to and we didn't!!! This is what killed me, is still killing me. I didn't live up to my end of the bargain and that is about destroying me. Yes I will pay the remainder of the balance off and I was lucky to of had an extended warranty and the Jeep may be paid off in full sooner then we expected thank God but still. WE GAVE OUR WORD DAMN IT AND DID NOT FOLLOW THROUGH!!!
Friday night the Jeep left the driveway. Saturday afternoon my bestest friend Shirl took me grocery shopping for food because I didn't have any food nor did I have any money to buy food. Just how low can you get before your belly is lower then a snakes anyway because I think I just found it.
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